Fri 2 Jul 2010
There is not one known way (OCD) Obsessive compulsive disorder is caused. Doctors have said it could be genetics or at early childhood exposure to dramatic situations. I can remember when I started to see my symptoms. It was a basic panic attack at school. I remember my heart pounding, breathing fast and feeling like I was starting to go crazy. OCD is just one of many anxiety disorders out there. I have been in therapy for years and with a lot of searching I can narrow it down to two events in my life. Besides being born with this disorder, it all depends what or if any certain events will flip the switch on. I remember watching TV about germs and how it can destroy your body. I was told to wash my hands all the time. This has been stuck into my head for years. I didn’t want to be contaminated with whatever was out there. I was washing my hands 250 times per day. Washing and rewashing my clothes, dishes and door handles. This was not a life to live. The second event I can remember was the big scare about blood born illnesses. I would put 5 bandaids over a scratch to make sure nobody’s blood would land on my scratch. Sounds crazy I know, but if you suffer from this disorder, you know exactly what I am talking about.
I have been better now and would concider myself “OCD free”. This took a lot of time, tool and coaching to beat this. There is hope. I am walking proof of it.